And now it begins...
I feel overwhelmed. I just found out today that UCLA's deadline is Dec 1st for applications. I need to get on my personal statement; it will be a miracle if I can even pump something half way decent out by then. I'm thankful writing is my better subject. I also have a lot of work to do, since it's the end of the month and Thanksgiving is next week. I did not even come CLOSE to meeting this month's goals/budget for work; and I'm stressed about that. I have a huge presentation for work tomorrow in front of 180 students. I need to prepare; it's the first time this teacher (department head) is giving me a chance to do my thing- I need to impress him. Plus I need to enter all of my leads for the entire month into the system database. Data entry- my favorite. ARP is tonight. I need to workout. My friend the surfer just had surgery last week and asked me to visit him tonight before the ARP meeting.
When am I going to get everything done?
When I start freaking out like this- I don't do anything. It's been awhile since there were this many important things on my plate all at once. I mean, I have a LOT to get done...it may not sound like it- but it is a lot. So what do I do when I'm stressed? Definitely not anything healthy. I start checking facebook. I start reading blogs. I don't work- or take care of what needs to be done. I watch movies. I start talking on the phone to my friends and family. I write blog posts (ah-hem!). I revise said blog posts. I start cleaning out my purse. I get on gchat. I get on FB chat. Anything to distract me. And I eat.
I've already had 15 out of 20 points today (WW). It's only 2:30 and that doesn't leave me with much for the rest of the day. PLUS I haven't worked out yet. I can guaran-damn-tee you I'll go over the 5 points today. Yes- I have flex points- but I try not to use them or I don't lose. Plus I'm eating carbs like a maniac. Where are my veggies? I haven't had any veggies or fruits in days. I tried today; but that orange didn't fill me up so before you know it- I had a different snack in hand/mouth. I need to go grocery shopping. I need to get PAID.
I weighed in at 137.6 on Monday. 138 yesterday. 138.6 this morning. If I don't get a grip- I'll be back in the 140's in no time. Plus the weekend is almost here. At least I haven't had sugar yet.
I have so much to do. Boys are writing me on the dating site. People are texting me about school. Maimee wants to talk about boy drama. I want to hide under my bed; can I go hide under my bed now?