I haven't written in a few days because, well, I just don't have much to report. I've been thinking about different areas of my life- thinking- well...could I report on any boys? NO! There is no one new. There is a super cute boy actually, that I think is beyond beautiful- but alas my bestie (and super aggressive bestie at that) has swooped in and stolen him as an option. I am currently trying to snag his older brother's attention- but the older brother lives in Chicago so I'm not trying super hard. I have concluded though- that when I do finally meet someone- it's going to be a guy that has to be interested in me and only me- because with how aggressive my friends are- I will never be able to snag one if they just go for "whoever is easiest" or, whoever makes things easiest for them anyway. All of my girlfriends are super cute and super aggressive, and as much as I'd like to say I can step it up and be as aggressive as they are- I can't. It's not in my nature- it doesn't feel natural to me and I can't force it. I've tried in the past- only to come home in tears and embarrassed because I did something I wasn't comfortable with. So I'm hoping someone will come along who is interested in me- and only me. Let's keep our fingers crossed...
Could I report on any work crap? NO! There is nothing new there either. Work is boring lately. They changed the responsibilities of my position back in October and now the position is pretty boring. I have to visit so many high schools a day and set up appointments to come back and do presentations and yesterday I broke down bawling in my car because I loathe making these visits so bad. I also started my period 5 minutes later though...so I think I'll chalk up that bawl fest to TOM and move on.
What about my family? The only thing new I can report here- is that my nephew started walking. I'm love the little videos my family sends me! I will not be going home for Thanksgiving but my sister and her husband and boys will be coming out here to see me. I will be going home for Christmas but my sister and her husband will be at his parents house for Christmas, so it won't be the full family this year. It's okay though, I'm still looking forward to just lounging around my mom's house for a week.
What about weight loss? Well..I'm down, so that's good. Still haven't broke the 140 mark- the weekend was pretty rough. I ate sooooo much- but didn't really gain anything. I thought I did- 2 pounds, but then I started my period and that 2 pounds immediately went away. I'm sitting at 140.4 as of this morning. I'm going to go on a long run this afternoon to see if I can help my body shake off a half pound or more this week. :) I AM SO CLOSE!!! I think I was basically there before the weekend started but the weekend was just so full of eating and eating and more eating festivities that it's a miracle I didn't gain more. Pizza and burritos made enchilada style and breakfast waffles with peanut butter and whip cream and banana's and...oh my! The bottom line? Food: I luv it. I huge puffy heart it. It's one of my favorite things in life. However, since I'm trying to lose weight- it's not the best thing I can do right now (eat all the time). So I'm working out hard during the week and trying to "eat sensibly" so that when weekends like that come along- I'm not destroyed.
Other than that- my life is the same. Still plugging away at the no sugar thing...this Friday will be 30 days. I'm elated. It's not getting much easier but I'm getting used to it- and that's good enough for now. Still doing my ARP steps- this week is step 4 (TRUTH)- and while it's brutal- I try to just consider it cleaning house. You have to clean out all the dark spots, with all of the cobwebs- and put a light in there so you can see and organize everything and then you're good- right? Maybe throw out a few things...stuff like that. If that makes sense- I might just be confusing you. Maybe this will help...the key principle of step 4 is: "make a searching and fearless written moral inventory of yourself". There is a lot that goes into this...but like I said- long story short- cleaning house. Write all of your strengths and weaknesses. Be honest. Acknowledge what you've done; your past- etc etc etc. It's a work in progress but I'm getting there.
Anyway- that's me in a nutshell this week. How are you doing? What's new with you???