Wednesday, November 3, 2010



I'm so bugged with my body right now.

I made a goal to lose 1.5 pounds this week to get me out of the 140's and into the 130's.  I am so close and sick sick SICK of sitting on the fence- being this close to the 130's and not being able to touch them.  A month ago I made the goal to get down to 140 by Christmas and stay there.  It wasn't a lofty goal- but it was a goal nonetheless and I knew that the closer I get to 140, the harder it is to take and keep the weight off my particular body.  However, cutting out sugar has seemed to drop pounds right off and I've been sitting around 141.4 for about a week - a week and a half now.  So I decided that I wanted to go ahead and lose 1.5 this week.  Why not make bigger goals if you meet the ones you made earlier?  Feel me?

So yesterday and Monday I had good workouts/runs along the beach to help my body just kind of push towards the 139.9 mark.  Monday I ran 5 miles, last night I pushed to a new place and ran about 6.5 miles, maybe a little less (6.3?).  I had a taco after the run while down on Main St (Taco Tuesday yo!) and some water and that's it.

So why the hell does my scale go up this morning?  Not just .2 of a pound or anything- a whole pound.  I'm so irate.

I know what you're going to say- Patience. Give it time. It's okay, it only went up a .8 of a pound- we all fluctuate, etc.  I'm still pissed.  How am I going to hit my goal by next week if the scale is going the OPPOSITE direction?  Meanwhile I woke up sick.  Sore throat, stuffy nose, congested to the max.  No appetite.  Which also means no working out today.  So what do I do with that?  Proceed to have 2 bowls of cereal (non sugar, and unsweetened almond milk- of course) a piece of toast with peanut butter on it, and then I sat here and scooped peanut butter out of the jar for awhile, eating even more of it.  Because I didn't have enough on the toast apparently.

Oh yeah.  So "getting over my eating issues"?  HA!  I might not be eating sugar- but I clearly still binge when I'm pissed at myself. Oy veh...



  1. Well, apparently you are already doing great if your goal was to get to 140 and now your there, don't be so hard on yourself. Try to look rejoice in what you have done, and keep pluggin on! And feel better! (with chicken noodle soup, not a jar of peanut butter!)

  2. Been there done that. Including eating out of the PB jar. Soooo annoying how we react to the scale...yet I can't stop it either. Onward D. That's all you can do.

  3. I hear ya, Diz. Even tho I cut out guten, like I've confessed in previous posts, I can binge on anything. And when anxiety-ridden, that's exactly what I do.

    The good news is that that is what reminds us that it's not JUST a particular substance--it's a whole disorder/addiction/coping mechanism that needs to be dealt with.

    Uh-hmm. I'm sure that's good news. chuckle.


  4. Yeah I ate so crappy yesterday I didn't even weight this morning bcuz I was terrified to see what number it landed on!