My life is so messed up right now.
Things have become evident in the last 48 hours that the massage therapist is avoiding me. I thought that I was avoiding him until he texted me Friday night- but I'm starting to realize that in actuality- he is avoiding me. I'm not sure what happened or why he's avoiding me, but now that I'm realizing it- it's driving me insane. I hate relationships- especially when you're dealing with someone that won't talk to you or explain why they won't talk to you.
The boss texted me yesterday too. He is hurt that I haven't tried harder to be his friend since he fired me. Is this a joke? HE is upset with ME...for not trying to be HIS friend, after he fired ME. I wish I were a mature person, and when he texted me I could've dealt with it in a mature fashion- but when someone comes at me guns blazing, I don't exactly throw up a peace flag. Instead I fire back- and fire back is what I did. I don't think it's what he expected or anticipated- and I think I may have made things even worse. Part of me doesn't care. Part of me doesn't know what to say. He kept sending these texts that were like "okay- have a nice life" and I just kept sending texts that said "what did you expect would happen?". I'm a bitch.
I also met a new guy this weekend. The problem is I'm broken from the massage therapist right now and really can't do anything. We hung out last night and I could barely focus on anything he was saying or doing. I feel horrible but I just cannot do it right now. All I want to do is workout and avoid my whole life.