Well, I'm definitely growing in the new position.
I am loving my new job so much more than the old one. It is hard- but I am growing more and more confident every day. I was driving around today thinking- even though this is really tough sometimes, I am happy. I love it, so that definitely makes it so much easier.
Today I had to have a difficult conversation with B. She went with the boss man and did an appointment today that I helped set up last week. Together we were able to book 4 appointments last week, which the boss said has never been done before; I'm not sure why. Probably because 3 of them were all booked in the same day (that was when everyone started freaking out- when I called to tell the boss that we booked 3 in one day). We went to work her area by her house and I just started asking people if they wanted a complimentary facial and it worked; people started booking. Anyway, I feel like I did the majority of the talking during those appointments, but in an attempt not to be greedy or crazy- I told B that she could have all 3 of them because they are closer to her home and I know she is struggling as much as I am. I am confident (and was then) that I could book more appts; especially seeing how easy it was to book those three. Well, she took one of them (the one today) and then said she would "share" the other two. Really? I called the boss that night to tell him that we booked those appointments and he said that we needed to quit working together; which I agreed. He told me that I would become resentful of her if we stayed together, and I can tell that his words are already coming to fruition.
I don't mind that she did that appointment without me today; that's not it. The boss told her on the way there that maybe we could work together after all; he told her that we could do visits and then if we book appointments- we can alternate who gets to do the appointment. He told me later when I called him tonight (I talk to him every night basically to give a run down of what happened that day...I feel like he's my mentor) that he said that to her because we did so well last week, that he thought maybe we had some kind of back and forth system going. He also apologized and said next time he would ask me first before doing that. Anyway, she texted me after the demo to see if I was game to do this, and I wasn't okay with it. Because I feel like I did 90% of the talking last week, I feel like I should keep my appointments for myself. While I know she needs help, at the same time- if she sold that unit today (which there is a strong possibility that the boss sold it for her), she got paid for it and I didn't. And she isn't sharing the money, so I need to make sure I get paid too. So I called my mom, freaking out. She calmed me down and helped me figure out how to say it in a nice way- I finally told her that though i enjoy working with her, I don't know how my schedule is going to look and I don't feel like I should commit to more than once a week or so (to work together). She was fine with that and I am super grateful because I would never want to hurt her- she is so sweet and nice. I'm not quite sure she is ready for this kind of job; you have to be assertive and passionate and she is a little timid. I'm not sure if it's because she's new to this kind of work or if it's because she is just shy by nature. Either way- I am rooting for her to do well. I just feel like I need to be on my own for a little while.
My point is- before today, I would've never had the guts to just bite the bullet and tell her without calling the boss first and asking him to do it for me so I don't look like the bad guy. I am growing! I am learning. :)
Okay lovies- time for bed. I started working out with my friend Em again and we are now getting up at 6:30 every morning to lift weights. Kill me. I better be HOT this summer!