I mean...who am I???
I got up this morning and went running at 5:10 am. Who does that? Especially when there's no reason to? I don't have to be up early for work or anything. I just woke up and was like..."uh...it's 5 am. WTH! I can either go back to sleep, or i can get up and start my day. I think I'll start my day." And I did. Don't get me wrong, I've worked out every other day- it's not like I can't fit it in later. I just wanted to get it done- so I did it. ;) I went for a run and came home, took a hot hot shower, and got going. I'm pretty pleased with myself, if I do say so myself. I ended up having a VERY full day of work because I was awake and ready to go by the time it was work time.
It's been 16 days since I've had sugar. I am struggling today. I think TOM is coming. I keep eating in attempts to stop the cravings, but the cravings won't stop. I finally had to quit eating because I'm running out of things to eat and I know I can't really be hungry- I'm just having an eternal craving that won't go away. I literally had to stop myself and ask- are you hungry? Cause I keep thinking I'm hungry. But being snacky isn't helping- so whether I'm hungry or not- I've eaten plenty today and need to chill for awhile. I'm wearing the martian outfit tonight and CANNOT be bloated. Day one of the martian costume about to commence in T minus 4 hours...
My neighbor came over today to chat- I haven't seen him since before he left for HI to propose to his girlfriend. We always talk about relationships because he is the relationship guy- he's written several books on relationships. I would tell you who he is- you probably know him- he's been on CNN and the Today Show and every other show out there, but I can't. Not only for his confidentiality, but for mine too- I'm anonymous!! Anyway, he said a few things to me that I've been mulling over. First of all, I need to set the stage a little more for you: Coke- my bestie is here, of course. She recently had a break up and the neighbor has been kind of coaching her along. So they were talking about relationships and I came out and we started chatting and he says, "I can't wait for you to meet someone, D. He's going to be a great catch- and you're going to be swept off your feet. And so happy." Which of course, I loved. Coke followed that with, "I know right! I wonder all the time why she's single; she's so awesome. I don't get it- but I know she's going to meet someone soon..." Which I also appreciated.
All of this so far was great...I was loving it (my neighbor is really hot btw). Then he says, "I just want to make sure- to clarify- you do get dressed up and stuff when you go out though...right? I mean, I know you love sweats, and no make up and stuff...but guys do like girls that are dressed up and cute. I'm not talking slutty or anything- but you know, sexy." I stared at him- shocked. I didn't know what to say. Um..yes neighbor...I get dressed up; Thanks. I also put on makeup everyday. I know you may not see it because I tend to keep to a more natural look during the day, but I have eyeliner and mascara on right now. Thank you. Are you saying I'm plain? Or not sexy enough- cause I'm not sure what you mean. Coke wasn't saying anything; suddenly something on the ground was looking super interesting because she kept kicking whatever it was around with her toe. "Of course" I mumbled. "Okay great- I just wanted to make sure. I mean, you're beautiful, but like I said, guys appreciate a girl that gets dressed up occasionally..." he trailed off.
I guess I need to try harder.
HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEEEEEEN!!!! I'll post pics once I have them. :)