Friday, October 29, 2010

SCARYYYYY

I mean...who am I???


I got up this morning and went running at 5:10 am.  Who does that?  Especially when there's no reason to?  I don't have to be up early for work or anything.  I just woke up and was like..."uh...it's 5 am.  WTH!  I can either go back to sleep, or i can get up and start my day.  I think I'll start my day."  And I did.  Don't get me wrong, I've worked out every other day- it's not like I can't fit it in later.  I just wanted to get it done- so I did it. ;)  I went for a run and came home, took a hot hot shower, and got going.  I'm pretty pleased with myself, if I do say so myself.  I ended up having a VERY full day of work because I was awake and ready to go by the time it was work time.

It's been 16 days since I've had sugar.  I am struggling today.  I think TOM is coming.  I keep eating in attempts to stop the cravings, but the cravings won't stop.  I finally had to quit eating because I'm running out of things to eat and I know I can't really be hungry- I'm just having an eternal craving that won't go away.  I literally had to stop myself and ask- are you hungry?  Cause I keep thinking I'm hungry.  But being snacky isn't helping- so whether I'm hungry or not- I've eaten plenty today and need to chill for awhile.  I'm wearing the martian outfit tonight and CANNOT be bloated.  Day one of the martian costume about to commence in T minus 4 hours...

My neighbor came over today to chat- I haven't seen him since before he left for HI to propose to his girlfriend.  We always talk about relationships because he is the relationship guy- he's written several books on relationships.  I would tell you who he is- you probably know him- he's been on CNN and the Today Show and every other show out there, but I can't.  Not only for his confidentiality, but for mine too- I'm anonymous!!  Anyway, he said a few things to me that I've been mulling over.  First of all, I need to set the stage a little more for you: Coke- my bestie is here, of course.  She recently had a break up and the neighbor has been kind of coaching her along.  So they were talking about relationships and I came out and we started chatting and he says, "I can't wait for you to meet someone, D.  He's going to be a great catch- and you're going to be swept off your feet.  And so happy."  Which of course, I loved.  Coke followed that with, "I know right!  I wonder all the time why she's single; she's so awesome.  I don't get it- but I know she's going to meet someone soon..."  Which I also appreciated.

All of this so far was great...I was loving it (my neighbor is really hot btw).  Then he says, "I just want to make sure- to clarify- you do get dressed up and stuff when you go out though...right?  I mean, I know you love sweats, and no make up and stuff...but guys do like girls that are dressed up and cute.  I'm not talking slutty or anything- but you know, sexy."  I stared at him- shocked.  I didn't know what to say.  Um..yes neighbor...I get dressed up; Thanks.  I also put on makeup everyday.  I know you may not see it because I tend to keep to a more natural look during the day, but I have eyeliner and mascara on right now.  Thank you.  Are you saying I'm plain?  Or not sexy enough- cause I'm not sure what you mean.  Coke wasn't saying anything; suddenly something on the ground was looking super interesting because she kept kicking whatever it was around with her toe.  "Of course" I mumbled.  "Okay great- I just wanted to make sure. I mean, you're beautiful, but like I said, guys appreciate a girl that gets dressed up occasionally..." he trailed off.

I guess I need to try harder.

HAPPY HALLOWEEEEEEEEEEN!!!! I'll post pics once I have them. :)

xoxoxoxo

D

9 comments:

  1. Good luck. Even tho I'm a little bit worried at anyone that will get up at 5 am and go running. Don't get me wrong, I'm up at 5 getting ready for work. but if I didn't have to go to work. I'd be snoring like the wind.

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  2. Awesome on the run! You go girl.

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  3. you're a pretty stellar gal on all fronts, Diz! i LOVE that you found the strength to run this early morning and have gone 16 days without sugar. the way you described waking up this morning, it sounds like you just got up and did what was natural. so many times i wake up intending to exercise and slowly (and painfully) talk myself out of it.

    your posts here and your support on my blog give me honest hope that we can achieve great things when we just try and believe!

    have a fantastic weekend!

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  4. OK. I am not going to address the superficiality of the above "Do you get dressed up and put on make-up?" remarks. aaargghh! No, I'm not. Excuse me a moment while I kick this soap box far enough away from the desk so that I don't jump up on it....

    Ok. Now. Cravings. Aaarrrgghhh! Diz, I hope you made it thru. I am struggling. BIG. Really big. I don't know what's wrong. I've been off for the last couple of weeks. Pray for me! I'm afraid I'm going to gain my weight back. :(

    You keep at it, fierce girl. I'm praying for you, too.

    Deb

    And you want a guy who loves your face without the paint because he first loved your soul. (sorry, I was able to get my toe onto the box.)

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  5. Up and running at 5:10? I think all the curl just ran out of my hair and died.

    Okay, seriously, you go! That's pretty awesome, and I have to admit I might like getting my exercise done and over with sooner rather than later. I'm not planning to get up early enough to find out though.

    16 days without sugar is amazing. Kudos to you!

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  6. Whoot! Making a choice to go running first thing in the am is hot! Love it! And 16 days is amazing! You have been struggling with Sugar and your are winninng

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  7. I love a good sweat first thing in the morning! I am a spinner.
    Do what feels good for you! Be comfortable in your own skin (or sweats) make yourself happy and you will attract someone who appreciates the happy you!
    Amy

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  8. Uh-Akward!!! So you don't get all sessy all day long? lol Seriously, don't let him bug you. Guru or not, women are still a mystery to men. Of course you gussy it up for nights out! Shoot-I even have "work hair & weekend hair". ha ha

    Way to go run woman! And holy cow for 16 days with no sugar too-you are doing it! Just keep telling yourself how awesome you are, TOM be damned.

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