A lot has been on the brain...
I know I keep talking about sugar- and I'm sorry. I read a blog tip thing once and it said never apologize on your blog for things you say or if you haven't written in awhile because it doesn't matter and your readers will get annoyed. Ever since I read that thing, I get annoyed when people start out a post with..."Sorry it's been soooo long since I've written anything! I'm just so busy!" Really? WE DON'T CARE. Obviously we came back to read the new post- you don't have to tell us. Anyway, I feel like that's what I'm doing- sorry I keep talking about sugar! - but whatever- I had to say it. It obviously is on my mind a lot right now. Rest assured if I get to talk about everything I want to today- Sugar will not be the only topic.
Speaking of that crack...I had a dream last night I was sampling all these cakes. They were so good and I was loving and then I remembered I wasn't supposed to be having sugar. Then I rationalized that since I already had some, it was okay. The good news is, in my dream I tried to stop eating the stuff once I remembered. The bad news is, it wasn't my only dream about sugar. It's infiltrating my dreams! Hahaha
Also, I wanted to comment on a comment made on my blog yesterday. Gina from P90X-One Girl's Story mentioned that if I were a crack head- surely people wouldn't be offering me more hits. But then I thought to myself, not if they were crack heads too. If they were crack heads too, they wouldn't see anything wrong with taking a hit, because they're still taking hits. They would want you to join in the fun. And if you were seriously about quitting, you'd quit hanging out with other crack heads. Now, that's not to say that I can't hang out with people that eat sugar- because obviously I would be alone in this big world. I mean, I guess I could find a few freaks, but who wants that? It's just interesting to think about it- and I agree with Cindylew from Cindylew Who??? on the previous post that taking one or two bites here and there is just exacerbating the problem. I need to be stronger and say no all together and then stay my ground- not give in and have a bite here and there- because I DO think it's making the cravings worse.
Gina also made another interesting comment on my post last night: "Life without challenges is boring". I love that comment so much! You're absolutely right- and there is nothing better than when you know you've tackled something. Whether it's weight, sugar, not showering..It feels good to conquer a challenge. So onwards and upwards, as my friend Deb from Deb will be FREE would say. I CAN DO THIS. At the moment- the cravings aren't really happening and I'm okay with that. :) Maybe I'm on the downhill slope today...
In other news..
My friends and I are going on a Haunted Hayride on Friday night in LA. Somehow it's morphed from a group thing into a couple's thing. All of my friends have dates. The one and only guy I'm semi- interested in- my neighbor- we'll call him 37- is going to be out of town. He is going to Nepal (what!). He has taken me out to thai food once- and just texted me this morning to see if I wanted to go again when he got back- so that's good. I don't know what it is about him- but I just kind of like him. I can't figure out if it's the way he speaks, or the way he is around other people- I'm not sure. He's cute though. Anyway...he's going to be gone so I texted my trusty backup- Ricardo- But Ricardo is doing scary movie night at his house on Friday with a huge group of people and I'm date-less. WTH. I HATE being in this situation. I know I can find someone, but it's the pressure. I'm not interested in anyone else. Ricardo would've been perfect because he's social, he's cute, we've made out a few times so I know we would've ended the night right...anyone else I ask at this point is going to be a new person that is awkward because we don't really know each other. Plus, introducing someone new to the group is tough- they're not an easy crowd to please.
Well, there's one more that I can ask...but he's not a favorite among my friends by any means, and I'm not sure I want to egg him on. We went to Taco Tuesday last night with 37 and another friend of mine and then he invited himself over afterwards (not 37, the other guy. What can I call him? I'll call him Sanuk) Sanuk came over and wanted to watch a movie. I have no idea if this guy is just my friend or pursuing me. He called me last week to help him with his gift for his mother's 70th birthday...but now I'm rambling. I'll give you guys the rundown another day- the point is- should I ask Sanuk to the Haunted Hayride? Here are my thoughts: I don't have a problem with him per se, but my friends don't really like him. He tried to date Coke awhile back so that makes things kind of weird because she didn't like him and then he moved on to me. I don't know if he's trying to date me or not (because he's always calling me and texting me), but he's probably moving in a month due to a new job out of state. Ahhh...hell. Why is this Haunted Hayride a date thing??
I stayed up til after 1 am last night reading "The Hunger Games". Has anyone read this book? It's AMAZING! I love it! I tried to only read it at the gym to keep myself motivated, but it's so good I can't put it down. If it were the weekend, I could've easily stayed up til 3 or 4 am, finishing it. But I'm trying to keep myself on track. If you're a reader (like me)...go get it (if you haven't already). SOOOOO GOOOOOOD!
Okay that is all this morning. Hope your day is fabulous- LOVE YOU GUYS!!!