I have a lot going on in my brain this morning. A LOT.
Grad school is becoming a harder and harder, further and further fantasy for me that seems to be just out of my reach. I wish I would've decided 3 months ago to do this; all of the deadlines are right now and I still haven't taken the GRE or GMAT. It looks like after all is said and done, I will probably have to wait another year to go. I'm missing deadlines right and left and seem to be paralyzed with the inability to do anything about it. But I don't want to wait another year- now that I know I want to do this- I want to go NOW. I'm frustrated and overwhelmed. Then there is still the looming question of what program...where...my personal statements, costs, etc
Then there is Christmas and money. Who to buy for, how much to spend, when to get what by; I can't open this can of stress right now.
2 things on a list of 10 that are swarming in my head. I need to go to the gym. I need to go shopping, not just for gifts, but for myself. I need to make some visits for my job. I need to get this all done before the BSM (boy scout master) calls me to go to a matinee this afternoon. I need to do this and do that and do this and do that...
Remember how I told you that when I get stressed- ultimately I end up doing nothing? Yeah, that's today. I've been up since 6:30 and I've succeeded at brushing my teeth, checking my bank account, depositing a check into my bank account, reading a few good articles about feeling the spirit of the season, and eating breakfast.
Wow- time flies when you're having fun.