Last night I could barely sleep because I've been a bundle of nerves for the last two days. It's time; by this time tomorrow I will be in Madison, on my way to Chicago. I doubt I will sleep tonight- I am too excited and freaked out about the weekend. Why is the worst storm of the year happening when I'm trying to sneak away and go there? Plus this guy...
I am also super stressed about work. SUPER STRESSED. Today I applied for 3 or 4 new jobs. I hate looking for new jobs. I mean, yes, I'm always saying that I want a new job, but I never actually apply for jobs. Tonight I had a fantasy that I could build up my massage clientele to get to the point where I could quit my job and just do massage full time again. I did two massages tonight to give me extra money for this weekend...my wrist was hurting a little by the end of the second one. I don't know if I can do massage full time anymore- my body is too wasted.
Speaking of wasted, I went to yoga sculpt tonight too. Talk about an ass kick. I will be so sore tomorrow and I'm so excited. Yoga sculpt is yoga with weights for those of you who don't know what it is. The instructor tonight was hardcore- she pushed us and pushed us until I thought I was going to throw up...twice. Luckily, I didn't throw up OR pass out...instead I came home and ate a bunch of yellow curry with rice and then had 5 or so of those Reese's peanut butter hearts. My stomach has been clinched for the 2 hours (sugar AND nerves). I have been eating so bad for the past month due to the stress I'm constantly piling on myself. Somehow though, I'm maintaining my weight- I think it's all of the working out I've started doing to relieve the stress. Whatever is happening, it's working. I just hope that once I get back from Chicago- I can go ahead and get a grip and start losing again. I plan to "hit the health" hard when I get back. No more crap- back to how I was eating pre-holidays. Healthy, clean, good foods. I know I said this only a month ago for New Year's...but hey- I'm a work in progress, what can I say!?
Okay my loves- I have to go pack my bags now. Pray for me. 1) that I won't get stuck in an airport somewhere between here and Wisconsin and freeze to death. And 2) that I'll be safe and have fun.
xoxoxoxo!!!
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Have fun on your trip. :) Remember though the best time to start a diet it exactly when it occurs to you. Putting it off for a better time usually means the time never arrives. I wish you the best. :)
ReplyDeleteDiz? Are the ariports even open in Chicago? You better check. Deb
ReplyDeletebeen thinking about you, Dizzy, and hoping everything about this trip goes of well. it excites me to hear about you getting back into the pre-holiday swing. you burnt it up in a big way, and you can do it all over again! thank you for your advice on my last post. i keep re-reading it because it's what i needed to hear!
ReplyDelete<3 praying for you.
Sorry I have been absentee my lovely. I am dying to hear all about Chicago! Lots of love -Mwauh!
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