I'm kind of pissed this morning.
First of all, I just read Draz's post and I am inspired. I have a backbone too.
There is no need to sit here and keep feeling sorry for myself and let my eating be out of control. I am up over 6 pounds since Chicago- and let me remind you that I wasn't "down" then. I was hovering just under 140...but not anymore. I've plummeted deep into the 140's...seeing numbers I haven't seen in months. But you know what? It's okay. Of course there are going to be consequences for my actions, and I need to take responsibility for what I've been doing.
Last night I woke up around 3:30...feeling sicker than I have in months. I ate a huge burrito right before I crashed and it was just sitting in my stomach and around 3:30 my stomach was PISSED. Not as in..I just need to go to the restroom. PISSED as in- you never do this to me, I'll show you Big Burrito. I decided at 3:30 am I'd had enough. I hate hate HATE feeling this way. I'm not doing it anymore.
Who cares that some guy doesn't love me? I love myself. There's no reason to treat myself poorly.
So I'm having some detox tea right now. I will go running today. I will do yoga. I will eat all healthy foods; mostly fruits and vegetables as I try to make my way back to normal. I am drinking tons of water and will continue to try to get a gallon in today. And I will love myself today. I will be kind to myself and treat myself how I want to treated- with respect, patience, and love.
I have a backbone too, and it's a beautiful backbone that curves just in the right spot and personally I think it's a pretty spectacular backbone. :)