Last night I could barely sleep because I've been a bundle of nerves for the last two days. It's time; by this time tomorrow I will be in Madison, on my way to Chicago. I doubt I will sleep tonight- I am too excited and freaked out about the weekend. Why is the worst storm of the year happening when I'm trying to sneak away and go there? Plus this guy...
I am also super stressed about work. SUPER STRESSED. Today I applied for 3 or 4 new jobs. I hate looking for new jobs. I mean, yes, I'm always saying that I want a new job, but I never actually apply for jobs. Tonight I had a fantasy that I could build up my massage clientele to get to the point where I could quit my job and just do massage full time again. I did two massages tonight to give me extra money for this weekend...my wrist was hurting a little by the end of the second one. I don't know if I can do massage full time anymore- my body is too wasted.
Speaking of wasted, I went to yoga sculpt tonight too. Talk about an ass kick. I will be so sore tomorrow and I'm so excited. Yoga sculpt is yoga with weights for those of you who don't know what it is. The instructor tonight was hardcore- she pushed us and pushed us until I thought I was going to throw up...twice. Luckily, I didn't throw up OR pass out...instead I came home and ate a bunch of yellow curry with rice and then had 5 or so of those Reese's peanut butter hearts. My stomach has been clinched for the 2 hours (sugar AND nerves). I have been eating so bad for the past month due to the stress I'm constantly piling on myself. Somehow though, I'm maintaining my weight- I think it's all of the working out I've started doing to relieve the stress. Whatever is happening, it's working. I just hope that once I get back from Chicago- I can go ahead and get a grip and start losing again. I plan to "hit the health" hard when I get back. No more crap- back to how I was eating pre-holidays. Healthy, clean, good foods. I know I said this only a month ago for New Year's...but hey- I'm a work in progress, what can I say!?
Okay my loves- I have to go pack my bags now. Pray for me. 1) that I won't get stuck in an airport somewhere between here and Wisconsin and freeze to death. And 2) that I'll be safe and have fun.