I. Am. Alive.
I want to thank you guys for all of the support through my last few posts. Seriously, some of you have really buoyed me up when I thought for sure I was donezo. You don't know who you are- but I know who you are. Thank you.
I am still up weight wise. It's depressing, but I can't worry about it at the moment. It plagues me, and I don't have time for the plaguing. So I will focus on it when I can. I am still trying to get to the gym everyday and trying my best to watch what I'm eating...but I'm so stressed and emotional eating is what I do in times like this. I'm not making excuses- it is what it is. It's not who I am and as much as I hate it, I will not let it define me right now. But honestly, healthy food just doesn't sound desirable at the moment. Or ever, lately.
The good news is I'm half way through my Letter of Intent. I wrote a first draft- submitted it to a friend for review (a friend that just got his MBA and knows what I need to say), and I've totally re-written the whole thing. :) I am about half way through the 2nd draft and I feel good about the general direction the paper is taking. I had to finally put it away last night and go to bed as it was after 1 am and I still had to get up and work today. But I plan on working on it more tomorrow and finishing it up to send back to him for review. After that- all I have to do is stay focused on my GRE studies. I need a math tutor, but other than the math, I feel somewhat hopeful that I might do decently on the exam. Let's keep our fingers crossed. And keep praying for me! Those of you who are praying- thank you thank you for keeping me in your prayers, I need all the help I can get right now.
Work is coming along too. I'm about half way through the project that was due today. My boss knows though that I've had a million horrific happenings this week with my applications (work apps like email, not school app) so he has given me extra time. Maybe I will survive.
The only thing left is my birthday! Yes, my birthday was last month. But my dear friend here has decided to throw me a dinner celebration as my birthday falls on a holiday when no one really wants to celebrate. I'm so excited- 12 of my best girlfriends and I are getting together tonight for something special. I can't wait!! This is MUCH NEEDED.
So yeah, I'm surviving. And hopeful that I might even thrive soon...