I'm stressed this morning.
There is no reason for me to be this stressed...well, there kind of is, but it should be nothing I can't handle, and yet I'm sitting here, wallowing in my stress. My boss basically tripled the workload by giving us this project to do. We usually have to enter this information into the work database everyday- but we haven't had to do it since May (my team). Well, this week the boss decided he wants us to go back and enter everything since May; and it has to be done by next Friday. The process is really slow and takes a lot of time because the system is so slow. I have not been able to do anything since my passwords had to be reset and our corporate office hasn't gotten me my new passwords yet (I just called them AGAIN). So this is causing me to freak out. Because that puts a lot of pressure on next week, and if they don't get me my passwords by the end of today, I can't work on it over the weekend.
So a smart Dizzy would start working on her Letter of Intent, since she now has the time and she knows that needs attention. Or she could finish filling out her online app, since there is information she has to call her old University to get. But no, instead I'm just sitting here, freaking out. I need to get a grip- it's going to be a long month otherwise.
Or I could go to the gym. But my stomach is in knots and I'm not sure if I'm going to have diarrhea or not any minute now. It feels like it could be diarrhea-ish, or just nerves. What is my problem?
Yesterday I thought I was doing so well. I was telling someone that I was so thankful and that I feel like in the last month alone, I've come so far. Funny how "so far" really is just a few steps when you really look at it. And those steps can easily be taken backwards...in one giant step if you're not careful.
Ugh. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.