Whirlwind

Well, I've had another crazy weekend.

My life is so out of control right now.  Since I started the new job, my life is going in a direction I never would've imagined.  I went out with my girlfriends the other night for Cinco De Mayo and met a new guy.  He's young; 25 (for those of you who don't know- I'm 33), and so different than any type of guy that I normally date, but also refreshing and fun.  He's so nice to me- I'm a little taken aback by him.  I met him Thursday at a bar here in Huntington (a BAR out of all places- gross) and Friday night we had a date.  We went to dinner in Newport and as soon as we settled into the booth at this chic little place, I was just so excited and happy to be on a date with such a cute guy.  He made me feel so good and everything was just right; I felt cute in my outfit, we were in a super cool restaurant, I was on a date with a super cute guy... needless to say, we ended up having one of the best dates of my life.  The next day we got a wild hair and decided to drive up to the casino in Palm Springs, but once we got there- I started feeling overwhelmed.  I wanted to go home.

 Luckily for me, he was observant and noticed my mood had changed and asked me if I was uncomfortable.  I admitted that I was, and he just sat back and started talking to me (we found a little lounge in the casino) and after a few hours of just chill face to face conversation about life and us and our stories, I was able to calm back down. I am confused by this guy...I don't know why I'm confused, but I'm confused.  I like him, but it's kind of a lot right now with work and everything else and it overwhelms me because I've been single for so long and suddenly I felt like I was in a full blown relationship.  I realized after spending almost the entire weekend with him, that maybe I'm not as ready for a relationship as I thought I was.  My life is just so chaotic right now, I'm having a hard time seeing through all the dust and dirt that is flying up all around me (if that makes sense).  But he's also so cute and so cuddly and calm and nice...

The good news is- I'm loving my life right now.  I am just so happy and having so much fun.  Yes, I'm stressed to the max with work.  But from the stress I've also noticed that I have a great support team around me of people that care about me and are here to help me.  My friends, my family, my colleagues.  I'm making new friends and meeting new people and though it's chaotic- it's so fun!  For the first time in a long time, I feel like a grown woman.  I feel sexy and feminine and sure of myself...but then in other ways I'm not sure at all and still very vulnerable and scared.  I just love that I'm finally starting to come out of my shell and believe in me.

So yeah- on a workout/healthy tip- yeah...not doing that great.  I've been eating things like Taco Bell and In N Out and working out has not even been an option.  Everyday I have to remind myself that today will be the day...

Esp now that it's Monday- I feel like I'm ready to take the reigns again.  Back to Yoga and back to running!

xo-

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