Since we're all on the verge of moving soon- my roommates and I have decided to take a hiatus from dieting and feeling guilty about it. We're all grotesque at the moment and can't seem to kick it into gear to lose it. However, as I can barely shove/squeeze my fat ass into my STRETCHY work pants, I've decided to just go rogue and be really quiet about it. I'm still using my calorie app, and I decided on the days that I work (which is 5), I will work out too. Yoga and running, as usual (hey! It burns calories quick).
So today- I was secretly counting calories using my app. I've started eating a lot more protein than in the past because I need it for massage. I've found that if I don't eat enough, I have a really hard time making it through all 6 massage appointments. I begin to get weak and my muscles start to ache, even to the point of being sore. However, if I eat protein in the morning- something substantial too, not like...AN egg, then I am usually fine to get through my shifts. So this morning I had an egg white melt thing from Subway. The only thing bad on it was the extra cheese- but I love cheese so whatever. Then for lunch after work, I ran over to Whole Foods and had chicken salad from the deli. Now, I love protein lately. But a lot of protein seems to be very caloric-ly rich, if you get my drift. What I'm trying to say is that I was already on the high end of my calories for the day by the time lunch was done. I come home- all intent on working out. And then I call my mother from some motherly advice about some work issues.
What do I proceed to do while chatting with her endlessly for 30 minutes? Oh...pop open a box of Coco Crispies and eat the cereal dry- right out of the box. I was craving sugar. Did I eat half a cup (serving) while I chatted? No. I probably had at least 3 cups...honestly, if not more. I don't want to put it in my calorie app and find out what I've done. If I work out today (which I now have to in order to have enough calories for dinner...), I will be hungry for dinner. Which I would've been anyway, but now it's guaranteed. What does this mean? I went over my calories for the day...AGAIN.
So now I'm waiting to go to yoga. I'm supposed to be leaving in 5 minutes. I will have to sweat in yoga with a sugar heavy, full stomach. I just decided while writing this that I may skip yoga today and just run instead. My stomach hurts.