Monday, November 14, 2011

Of course.

My life is flying by...I realized while falling asleep the other night that I've been so busy that I haven't even thought once about my blog- and I do apologize to those 3 or 5 friends that actually still read.  Thank you for your love and support.

Basically long story short- my friend convinced me to join a dating website, I did, and then I was busy going on a date literally every night (literally)...then I met a guy and we've been neck deep in turbo love for almost 3 weeks now.  It has been a whirlwind and so fun and between working two jobs, seeing this guy, and trying to maintain a social life- I just have forgotten about my blog.

Until I got fat again.

For the same reasons I've been neglecting my blog, I've also neglected eating healthily or working out.  It just doesn't seem to be a priority to me lately.  2 days ago (okay it's Monday so last Friday) I tried on a shirt for work...and the stupid thing didn't fit.  Excuse me? I don't remember the last time I had to take something off and find something else because I couldn't even get the stupid thing to button properly.  I mean, I have moments where things get tight and I'm uncomfortable trying to wear it so I don't.  But can't even button it?  Awesome.  I've noticed my face getting fuller but I've also just convinced myself that it's because I'm paranoid because I want to be cute for the new boy.  To make it even better, I have no idea how much I've gained because my scale's battery died and I don't have the $$ to replace them yet (it's those weird, exclusive expensive batteries and I don't even know where to find them).  All I know is I'm getting chubby mc-chub chub and my clothes are shrinking like crazy and now on top of it all- I got a boy trying to touch my muffin top every other second and it makes me hyperventilate.

So tonight I went running, did 300 jump ropes (I couldn't even do 500...where I have always started in the past), and then went to yoga.  My whole body was jiggling/bouncing during my jump was one of the most unpleasant experiences I've had in a few months. Honestly. Yes, I'm probably over killing it.  I'm trying so hard because I need results.  And I'm nervous because of course I'm not mentioning any of this to the boy- but how am I going to avoid all of the calorie bombs that come with dating?  He doesn't know it yet, but I committed to myself that I will NOT blow off another workout this week.  I will work out every day.  Period. Which means he may have to wait to see me; I'm sure it will do us some good.

So yeah, that's the latest.  Workout on.  Eating healthy: on.  Sleeping instead of staying up all night making out: eh....can't commit to that one yet. :)