I love Trainer Bob.
I'm watching the Quaker Oatmeal commercial and I just decided that I might just be in love with him. He's just so sexy! Sure he has moments where he's a little effeminate, but overall I think he's hot. He works out, he knows about nutrition, he pushes his contestants but at the same time also knows when to just be there for them...he celebrates their triumphs with them...He's HOT! I mean, I'm just sayin...
I'm watching the Notebook and it's Friday night...and I'm watching it alone while typing on my blog. I can't handle this- I've officially become pathetic. I'm 33 year's old...I should be out meeting men. I shouldn't be watching this emotional porn. At least I'm not eating popcorn too. ;)
Okay lovies...I have to go. More tomorrow!!!
XO-
D
Friday, February 25, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Drastic.
OMG.
I just wrote a whole post and deleted it. I want so bad to tell you guys everything about this new position and how awesome it is...LITERALLY- but I am not comfortable spilling the beans until it is all official. And it's not all official yet- the owner of the company was supposed to meet with me today to discuss this new position and discuss the salary but he was tied up so we had to reschedule it. But can I just tell you guys that today's meeting went fantastically and I am beyond floored? I mean...if I could just begin to even give you a hint of what this new job entails...you would die. Seriously. I cannot WAIT to share with you guys.
Pray for me that I get this job- please. I need all the prayers I can get for this.
XO-
D
I just wrote a whole post and deleted it. I want so bad to tell you guys everything about this new position and how awesome it is...LITERALLY- but I am not comfortable spilling the beans until it is all official. And it's not all official yet- the owner of the company was supposed to meet with me today to discuss this new position and discuss the salary but he was tied up so we had to reschedule it. But can I just tell you guys that today's meeting went fantastically and I am beyond floored? I mean...if I could just begin to even give you a hint of what this new job entails...you would die. Seriously. I cannot WAIT to share with you guys.
Pray for me that I get this job- please. I need all the prayers I can get for this.
XO-
D
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Toot it and Reboot it...
Hi friends!!
I got called back for a second interview with that company...tomorrow afternoon. I am really excited and nervous, so I'm trying right now not to think about it too much. Eeeek!!
I am also trying really hard to get a grip on my eating and I think I'm finally making a little head way. I've decided to cut out sugar again for awhile- for one thing it just makes me feel like crap. It really does. Not right away- not while I'm eating it...but later...like, 10 minutes after I eat it maybe? Sometimes it doesn't even take 10 minutes. I'm not sure when it hits, but it messes me up. I will not be hungry for awhile after eating it...like, I'll feel really full, and then out of nowhere I'll be starving and feeling sick because I'm so hungry. But it's not REAL hunger, it's this weird hunger...it's hard to explain unless you've experienced what I'm talking about (which I'm sure you all have). It's like, I'm hungry but I'm still full from the last time I ate. I don't know. I go to bed way too full and wake up full; even if I haven't eaten around bed time. After cutting out sugar from my diet for 3 months and then only eating it sparsely (until Chicago), now I can tell the difference between when I eat too much of it and how my body feels with or without it. So it's out for now. I've gained 5 pounds and I haven't been able to lose it- and I blame sugar and Diet Coke and Coke Zero and any other dark soda that I've been consuming.
I didn't eat any sugar yesterday and actually didn't eat anything until 5 o'clock last night. Yes, I was hungry and I know it's not smart to starve yourself- but I really wanted to reboot my system because I woke up full and feeling like crap yet again yesterday and I was over it. I've been feeling like shit physically for 2 weeks now. I'm tired constantly and full and feeling ill constantly. I wake up thirsty and full and it's not normal for me. I usually fast for about 24 hours once a month and I've learned that it really helps me reboot when I need it- so I did a half day instead of a full day yesterday to get back on track- you know, 12 or so hours. I feel so much better already and i've been eating so much better since the reboot. Today I've had some oatmeal for breakfast, an orange and some pretzels for a snack, sumi salad and roasted brussel sprouts for lunch, and half a banana with some peanut butter this afternoon for a snack. I'm about to go for a run now and hopefully some yoga and then I'll have a nice dinner, which I'm super excited about. I love feeling better!!!! :)
It's almost March my friends! Studies show that the majority of us have abandoned our New Year's resolutions by now...how are you doing??
XO-
D
I got called back for a second interview with that company...tomorrow afternoon. I am really excited and nervous, so I'm trying right now not to think about it too much. Eeeek!!
I am also trying really hard to get a grip on my eating and I think I'm finally making a little head way. I've decided to cut out sugar again for awhile- for one thing it just makes me feel like crap. It really does. Not right away- not while I'm eating it...but later...like, 10 minutes after I eat it maybe? Sometimes it doesn't even take 10 minutes. I'm not sure when it hits, but it messes me up. I will not be hungry for awhile after eating it...like, I'll feel really full, and then out of nowhere I'll be starving and feeling sick because I'm so hungry. But it's not REAL hunger, it's this weird hunger...it's hard to explain unless you've experienced what I'm talking about (which I'm sure you all have). It's like, I'm hungry but I'm still full from the last time I ate. I don't know. I go to bed way too full and wake up full; even if I haven't eaten around bed time. After cutting out sugar from my diet for 3 months and then only eating it sparsely (until Chicago), now I can tell the difference between when I eat too much of it and how my body feels with or without it. So it's out for now. I've gained 5 pounds and I haven't been able to lose it- and I blame sugar and Diet Coke and Coke Zero and any other dark soda that I've been consuming.
I didn't eat any sugar yesterday and actually didn't eat anything until 5 o'clock last night. Yes, I was hungry and I know it's not smart to starve yourself- but I really wanted to reboot my system because I woke up full and feeling like crap yet again yesterday and I was over it. I've been feeling like shit physically for 2 weeks now. I'm tired constantly and full and feeling ill constantly. I wake up thirsty and full and it's not normal for me. I usually fast for about 24 hours once a month and I've learned that it really helps me reboot when I need it- so I did a half day instead of a full day yesterday to get back on track- you know, 12 or so hours. I feel so much better already and i've been eating so much better since the reboot. Today I've had some oatmeal for breakfast, an orange and some pretzels for a snack, sumi salad and roasted brussel sprouts for lunch, and half a banana with some peanut butter this afternoon for a snack. I'm about to go for a run now and hopefully some yoga and then I'll have a nice dinner, which I'm super excited about. I love feeling better!!!! :)
It's almost March my friends! Studies show that the majority of us have abandoned our New Year's resolutions by now...how are you doing??
XO-
D
Monday, February 21, 2011
Happy President's Day! I'm presiding on my couch as we speak...
In my sweats, drinking yet another Coke Zero. Ahhhhh....
I was half way through writing a post all about the anxiety I was feeling when suddenly I got a text from my co-worker saying- You know we have today off don't you- it's a holiday!? (we work from home so I had no idea we actually got the day off). YAYYYY!!
Suddenly I have energy and feel elated. Life is so grand!
I went in for an interview today and had an awesome interview with this company and am getting really excited- the manager I met with today told me he thought I would be a great fit for the company and said he would call me in a few days (I am a little overqualified for the position I was originally applying for but was willing to take a step down in order to get the HELL out of my current job). He sent me one of those online tests to take and apparently I did great so he is going to call me about some other opportunities. What if I get a new job??? I am so happy!! I have said over and over the last few weeks that after Chicago I've realized that I really do have the perfect life- I just am over my job. So to find another opportunity is making my heart soar...cause this might be exactly what I need right now
I need to calm down. See what I'm saying? Mood switch so fast I might be manic. :)
xoxo-
D
Friday, February 18, 2011
Backbone.
I'm kind of pissed this morning.
First of all, I just read Draz's post and I am inspired. I have a backbone too.
There is no need to sit here and keep feeling sorry for myself and let my eating be out of control. I am up over 6 pounds since Chicago- and let me remind you that I wasn't "down" then. I was hovering just under 140...but not anymore. I've plummeted deep into the 140's...seeing numbers I haven't seen in months. But you know what? It's okay. Of course there are going to be consequences for my actions, and I need to take responsibility for what I've been doing.
Last night I woke up around 3:30...feeling sicker than I have in months. I ate a huge burrito right before I crashed and it was just sitting in my stomach and around 3:30 my stomach was PISSED. Not as in..I just need to go to the restroom. PISSED as in- you never do this to me, I'll show you Big Burrito. I decided at 3:30 am I'd had enough. I hate hate HATE feeling this way. I'm not doing it anymore.
Who cares that some guy doesn't love me? I love myself. There's no reason to treat myself poorly.
So I'm having some detox tea right now. I will go running today. I will do yoga. I will eat all healthy foods; mostly fruits and vegetables as I try to make my way back to normal. I am drinking tons of water and will continue to try to get a gallon in today. And I will love myself today. I will be kind to myself and treat myself how I want to treated- with respect, patience, and love.
I have a backbone too, and it's a beautiful backbone that curves just in the right spot and personally I think it's a pretty spectacular backbone. :)
D
First of all, I just read Draz's post and I am inspired. I have a backbone too.
There is no need to sit here and keep feeling sorry for myself and let my eating be out of control. I am up over 6 pounds since Chicago- and let me remind you that I wasn't "down" then. I was hovering just under 140...but not anymore. I've plummeted deep into the 140's...seeing numbers I haven't seen in months. But you know what? It's okay. Of course there are going to be consequences for my actions, and I need to take responsibility for what I've been doing.
Last night I woke up around 3:30...feeling sicker than I have in months. I ate a huge burrito right before I crashed and it was just sitting in my stomach and around 3:30 my stomach was PISSED. Not as in..I just need to go to the restroom. PISSED as in- you never do this to me, I'll show you Big Burrito. I decided at 3:30 am I'd had enough. I hate hate HATE feeling this way. I'm not doing it anymore.
Who cares that some guy doesn't love me? I love myself. There's no reason to treat myself poorly.
So I'm having some detox tea right now. I will go running today. I will do yoga. I will eat all healthy foods; mostly fruits and vegetables as I try to make my way back to normal. I am drinking tons of water and will continue to try to get a gallon in today. And I will love myself today. I will be kind to myself and treat myself how I want to treated- with respect, patience, and love.
I have a backbone too, and it's a beautiful backbone that curves just in the right spot and personally I think it's a pretty spectacular backbone. :)
D
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Dead Non Boyfriend.
I think I'm going crazy.
I just got home from work and came to check my comments from a post I wrote last night. Instead, I found two drafts from last night...both drafts were empty. What was I doing exactly? I could've sworn I wrote a post. I'm losing my mind.
This week has been super hard as far as diet/workouts go. I'm managing to get my workouts in but I am eating so so so terribly. I have no desire to stop- that's the worst part of it. I'm just kind of bummed still from the whole Goose (guy that I went to Chicago with) broke up with me even though he's not my boyfriend thing. Yeah, Monday we had a discussion about our relationship because he made a comment early in the day that pissed me off. It was Valentine's Day so I guess he felt pressured to mention that he "thought" about sending me flowers...which of course sent me into a tirade. It's not a good idea to say that to someone, ps. Either you send the flowers, or you don't; you don't get points for "thinking" about it. Made me feel like I wasn't worth flowers or wasn't worth the time or $$ to send them, which I eventually told him, and ultimately we had to have a talk about the whole thing. He finally told me how he really feels- that even though I'm "so great", he doesn't want to do long distance. I can't blame him- long distance sucks a fat one and I know this from personal experience. But it still sucked because I like him and I guess I was holding on to a glimmer of hope. Maybe I should've just taken the hint from the fact that he didn't send the flowers. Ah...I can be so dense sometimes.
Anyway- so I've been trying to process those feelings for several days now. You know- letting go, moving on (even though I've said this several times now. I just don't want to.). So consequently I've been running and doing yoga like crazy. I've also been pigging out even more. I'm barely maintaining. I feel gross 90% of the time. And I can't stop.
Process. Process. Process. Let myself go through the process, I will pull through eventually and get back on track. I just wish I could fast forward a month and be on with it. Then it could be March and I could be freaking out about getting in a swimsuit instead of mourning the loss of my beloved who was never mine to begin with...
:(
Welcome to my life.
D
I just got home from work and came to check my comments from a post I wrote last night. Instead, I found two drafts from last night...both drafts were empty. What was I doing exactly? I could've sworn I wrote a post. I'm losing my mind.
This week has been super hard as far as diet/workouts go. I'm managing to get my workouts in but I am eating so so so terribly. I have no desire to stop- that's the worst part of it. I'm just kind of bummed still from the whole Goose (guy that I went to Chicago with) broke up with me even though he's not my boyfriend thing. Yeah, Monday we had a discussion about our relationship because he made a comment early in the day that pissed me off. It was Valentine's Day so I guess he felt pressured to mention that he "thought" about sending me flowers...which of course sent me into a tirade. It's not a good idea to say that to someone, ps. Either you send the flowers, or you don't; you don't get points for "thinking" about it. Made me feel like I wasn't worth flowers or wasn't worth the time or $$ to send them, which I eventually told him, and ultimately we had to have a talk about the whole thing. He finally told me how he really feels- that even though I'm "so great", he doesn't want to do long distance. I can't blame him- long distance sucks a fat one and I know this from personal experience. But it still sucked because I like him and I guess I was holding on to a glimmer of hope. Maybe I should've just taken the hint from the fact that he didn't send the flowers. Ah...I can be so dense sometimes.
Anyway- so I've been trying to process those feelings for several days now. You know- letting go, moving on (even though I've said this several times now. I just don't want to.). So consequently I've been running and doing yoga like crazy. I've also been pigging out even more. I'm barely maintaining. I feel gross 90% of the time. And I can't stop.
Process. Process. Process. Let myself go through the process, I will pull through eventually and get back on track. I just wish I could fast forward a month and be on with it. Then it could be March and I could be freaking out about getting in a swimsuit instead of mourning the loss of my beloved who was never mine to begin with...
:(
Welcome to my life.
D
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Happiest Girl in the World? One day, young Paduin...
I can't believe all of the things that are happening in my life right now...
I have so much to tell you guys, and not enough time. First of all, it's 11 pm and I'm just now writing this post. I couldn't go another day. But I have to make it super snappy because I have to be up early for work...
Okay, I'm going to cut everything out in order to save time and just tell you guys that I finally...FINALLY got back on the wagon today around 4 pm and it was awesome. I was just done- you know? I stopped in at Cherry on Top to have a little ice cream treat and it made my stomach cramp up (as sugar usually does) and I just thought- I'm done. I'm over it. So I came home and managed to run 4.5 miles and then go straight to Yoga Sculpt, where I almost puked. I drank about 1/2 a gallon of water tonight (no joke- I'm seriously that dehydrated from drinking Diet Coke for 8 straight days...seriously my kidneys were starting to hurt), and I had some soup and took a hot shower and now I'm so excited to crawl into my bed.
I love being on a rampage- it makes me so much happier.
The other great thing that happened today is that I was talking to someone and he mentioned that I'm much happier when I have a plan. I've been mulling over this and thinking about a friend of mine (or two) that is kind of struggling in this area as well. I've come to the conclusion that I AM so much happier when I have a plan. I'm talking about a life plan. I'm talking about knowing what I need to do and want to do so that I don't feel stuck in a rut and doing nothing. I'm not the kind of person that can just be content with sitting; I'm a doer (I guess this would depend on the topic considering I haven't worked out for 2 weeks). I was happy to be studying for the GRE. I'm happy when I get calls for a new job potential because it means new opportunities and growth. And I'm happy right now when I think about all that the future holds and the opportunities I can create for myself if I will just take the time to figure out where I want to get to in 5 years. You feel me? So I am going to (yet again) make a 5 year plan. This may or may not include grad school. So what that I fell on my face once? Doesn't mean I will do that again. :) Of course right now I'm so spazzy and almost manic from this realization that I should definitely take a breather and think about this some more before I go on a crazy rampage and type a million words. Of blithering. Which we all know I tend to do.
Okay friends, literally that is all I can write about for now because I need to get to bed. Are you a planner too? What makes you happy?
I'm on a quest to find out how to be the happiest girl in the whole world. I hope I can find the answers I need to make this thought a reality. :)
XO!
D
I have so much to tell you guys, and not enough time. First of all, it's 11 pm and I'm just now writing this post. I couldn't go another day. But I have to make it super snappy because I have to be up early for work...
Okay, I'm going to cut everything out in order to save time and just tell you guys that I finally...FINALLY got back on the wagon today around 4 pm and it was awesome. I was just done- you know? I stopped in at Cherry on Top to have a little ice cream treat and it made my stomach cramp up (as sugar usually does) and I just thought- I'm done. I'm over it. So I came home and managed to run 4.5 miles and then go straight to Yoga Sculpt, where I almost puked. I drank about 1/2 a gallon of water tonight (no joke- I'm seriously that dehydrated from drinking Diet Coke for 8 straight days...seriously my kidneys were starting to hurt), and I had some soup and took a hot shower and now I'm so excited to crawl into my bed.
I love being on a rampage- it makes me so much happier.
The other great thing that happened today is that I was talking to someone and he mentioned that I'm much happier when I have a plan. I've been mulling over this and thinking about a friend of mine (or two) that is kind of struggling in this area as well. I've come to the conclusion that I AM so much happier when I have a plan. I'm talking about a life plan. I'm talking about knowing what I need to do and want to do so that I don't feel stuck in a rut and doing nothing. I'm not the kind of person that can just be content with sitting; I'm a doer (I guess this would depend on the topic considering I haven't worked out for 2 weeks). I was happy to be studying for the GRE. I'm happy when I get calls for a new job potential because it means new opportunities and growth. And I'm happy right now when I think about all that the future holds and the opportunities I can create for myself if I will just take the time to figure out where I want to get to in 5 years. You feel me? So I am going to (yet again) make a 5 year plan. This may or may not include grad school. So what that I fell on my face once? Doesn't mean I will do that again. :) Of course right now I'm so spazzy and almost manic from this realization that I should definitely take a breather and think about this some more before I go on a crazy rampage and type a million words. Of blithering. Which we all know I tend to do.
Okay friends, literally that is all I can write about for now because I need to get to bed. Are you a planner too? What makes you happy?
I'm on a quest to find out how to be the happiest girl in the whole world. I hope I can find the answers I need to make this thought a reality. :)
XO!
D
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